(JOLIN POV)

“How’s class today?” He asked as he placed the dish onto the dish wash tray to let it dry.

I inhaled a deep breath. I have to do it today. I, Jolin have to say it. I closed my eyes and blurted. “Chou Jie Lun. wo xi huan ni…”

I opened my eyes. I finally said it; I finally said those words that I had wanted to say for all these years.

I watched as he froze from what he was doing. After two seconds later, he turned on the faucet to rinse out the soap bubbles covering the dish. Did he hear what I said? Or did I said it too softly? “Jay?”

He put down the dish that he was washing and untied the apron. He turned to me, giving me the cold stare. “Stop fooling around. Do your homework.”

I bit my lips. “No! Are you still thinking about her? Are you still thinking about Vivian? For god sake, she’s dead for ten years already!”

“Shut up! Don’t talk about your sister like that!”

I glared at him. “I like you Jay! I really do!” I jumped on him, with my legs wrapped around his hips. I pressed my lips against his. He wrestled me, pulling me off and then throwing me onto the sofa. I was crying so loud, that I don’t even care if the whole neighborhood could hear me!

“Jolin, stop it. You’re a big girl now.” He took the keys from the table and left the house.

Ten years! Ten fucking years! I had a crush on Jay Chou ever since the day my sister brought him home to have a dinner with my parents. I know it was all wrong but I never did anything beside wait. After my whole family, Vivian, Mom and Dad died from the car accident, Jay became my guardian. He didn’t have to but he insisted to be. He kept on saying that this is the only thing he could do for Vivian.

I hugged myself into a ball as I continued to sob. How can he be mean, so selfish about my feelings? That night, Jay didn’t come home. When it reached 4 in the morning, I couldn’t stand it anymore. I ran into my bed room and dug through my clothes. Don’t think that you are all that Jay Chou! I put on a mini skirt and the most revealing tank top I could find along with a leopard bra and boots to make myself look wild. Jay Chou, you will regret this!
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(JAY POV)

Jolin, why did you say it? Why did you confess to me? I closed my eyes as I leaned against the tree. Ten years, it’s been ten years. During these ten years, I couldn’t deny how I started to develop a type of special feeling for Jolin. But I didn’t dare to think about it. I was afraid of losing her. Sixteen years ago, I loved a girl name Landy, she died in a car accident. I was shocked when Vivian had also died from a car accident. My life seemed to be curse. I, Jay Chou could never love a girl. I am sorry Jolin, because I love you, I can’t tell you how much I love you as well.

I looked up when I saw the gate opened. I peered down at my watch 4’o clock? Where is she going this late? I didn’t hesitate to think about following her. I threw down the cigarette that I was holding and got inside the car, following the taxi that Jolin was in.
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(JOLIN POV)
“Take me to a pub!” I said, nearly shouting. I leaned back against the taxi car and sighed. It began to pour outside. Big rain drop spattered against the taxi window, burying the street view. I caught the taxi man’s stare through the car mirror. Something seemed to be strange. I began to fidget a bit. At time to time, I noticed how the taxi man had glanced in the mirror, with a smirk on his face.

“Pull over!” And he did. I reached into my purse to pay for the ride when he grabbed onto my hand.

I was speechless. I was scare. I felt my heart beating fast against my chest. My lips began to quiver. I am scare. Jay, help.

“How much do…”

I felt like throwing a slap across his face but I couldn’t move. It almost seemed like my whole body was stone in the seat. “I…HELP!” I opened the taxi door. It wasn’t lock! Thank god! “HELP!”

The taxi man ran out and grabbed my wrist. “HELP! SOMEONE HELP ME!”

(JAY POV)
The taxi car suddenly stopped. I saw Jolin climbing out of the car but before she could do anything, the taxi man grabbed onto Jolin. I quickly ran out of my car and pulled away the man. For that second, I couldn’t think. I felt a strong movement of blood, rushing to my brain cells. I grabbed onto the man’s collar and punched him in his diaphragm. I knocked out the air from the man and before I can throw another fist Jolin embraced me from behind. “Jay!”

She was sobbing. I threw the man on the ground as I turned to Jolin. “Jo, are you okay?” I pulled her into my embraced as she continued to cry. “Jay…”

“Fuck! Fuck you!” The man coughed as he tried to get up. I stood in front of Jolin, protecting her from the taxi man. “You god damn idiots! I was just asking the bitch how much money she has! She looked like she fucking ran away from home!”

I helped the man up, but only to be pushed away. “Fuck you!” He climbed into his cab and drove away the next second.

Jolin looked at me and then, she began to giggle. I looked at her and began to laugh as well.

(JOLIN POV)
Jay, he saved me, why can’t he stop being so nice to me? Why can’t another man show up and be my savior. But instead it’s him again, Jay Chou. I grabbed onto Jay’s hand and let out a light hearted laugh. “Let’s dance.”

“Okay.” I was surprised that he would say yes. He grabbed onto my waist and held my hands. The feelings felt so magical. We danced in the rain. When he pulled me into his embrace, I pressed my lips against his. I love you Jay Chou.

(JAY POV)
The kiss, was so sudden, I harshly pushed her away, breaking the kiss. We stood under the pouring rain starring at each other. She looked angry. I looked away sadly. “Let’s go back.” I finally said. “You’ll get sick like this.” I reached for her hand, only to be shoved away.

“Don’t touch me!” Jolin said angrily. “Don’t…” She began to cry once again. I felt a lump on my throat. I wanted to force a hug on her, to make up for the kiss. But I couldn’t. I love you Jolin. I…

She began to walk always. I ran up to her, following her. “Come home with me Jolin.”

“No!” She said stubbornly. “Leave me alone!”

She’s so childish. I grabbed onto her wrist and dragged her back to the car. “Get in!” I ordered.

“You’re hurting me! Let go! LET GO OF ME! CHOU JIE LUN LET GO!”

I didn’t. I played with her strength. It hurt to see her like this. It even hurt more to make her feel like this. “I’m sorry Jo…”

She stopped struggling and looked at me. I embraced her and brushed her hair. “I can’t love you. If I start loving you, I’ll think of you as Vivian.” I lied.

Jolin pushed me away and shook her head in disbelieved. “So all along, you loved me as a substitution for Vivian?”

I looked at her and slowly nodded. Tears came rushing out from her eyes, merging with the rain. “I fucking hate you! Wang ba dan!”

Hate me. I want you to hate me. It’s the only way we can let go. I closed my eyes as I let her hit me with her weak fist.